At the change of seasons, I always find myself a bit down. It’s the whole leaving one season behind to get to another… the weather changes just a bit at a time until you’re suddenly 100% in a new season.

This summer/fall, I have been feeling a bit foggy. I feel as if I’m covered in those opaque and sticky clouds. I just can’t see the outline of myself and my true shape. I feel smudged. It’s 3L year, and I’m so excited that the end is near… but I’m so so anxious because I just don’t know what happens next. I don’t know! And I feel so uncertain and insecure because I know I am overqualified for anything entry level, but underqualified for anything I want… and I have the burden of over a quarter million dollars of student debt. And? There are just so many things to do. And there are so many things I want. I feel unprepared for all that is coming, and I know there is so much more to come. I don’t like feeling as if I am hanging on by a thread, I want to feel as if I am dominating.

Anyway, when I doubt, I stand at my kitchen counters and put together pretty food to cheer up.

Tomato and Pesto

• 1 Heirloom Tomato, sliced
• 1/4 cup of pesto
• 1 tablespoon of balsamic vinegar glaze